Mommy Guilt

I always heard of Mommy guilt from other mom's and even stories on social media. I never truly understood until I had my own child. I mean, honestly, how can you truly understand something until you have gone through it on a personal level? You can empathize, but the true experience, is different.

As mom's we often feel the guilt rather we are stay at moms, working moms, dropping off your little one to daycare/school, if they have an accident, running errands and taking longer than expected (rushing home), etc. The list is honestly endless of reasons why the guilt can be so overwhelming and strong.

I have some pretty cool things planned for this Spring/Summer with my sister and some girlfriends. I'm talking tropical vacation and a whole girls trip (inserts all emoji's). Sounds fun right?? The heavy guilt that I have experienced in the last couple of weeks leading up to the days of paradise have been so overwhelming. I have a heavy guilt that is weighing over me; simply because I don't want to leave my baby; and not to mention...my hubby and I barely get enough time, and here I am taking trips. I have consulted with my closest friends and even my mom who have all said, "GO!!!!!! You need this!!!"

While I have full confidence my hubby and son will be fine without me, it's extremely hard as we are a COVID family. Meaning, we had our son during COVID and all we knew were each other. I've never left home (out of town) without my family. We didn't have the normal experience of dropping baby off at a grandparents home so we could have adult time. By the time the world was "normal" again, we honestly navigated in the way we always had. It became comfortable. Sometimes, we have to get uncomfortable to find a different position of comfort; and that's okay.

With that being said, I know I'm not the only Mommy who feels guilt for so many things, especially for something like this. I'm trying to fixate my thoughts on what is needed for myself to be a better Mommy and wife. If I can be honest, I'm in the hardest struggle of my career I've ever been in, and never thought I would be at this point. I'm very much overwhelmed and stressed due to the nature of my job, and for that reason alone, I need a getaway.

I will be blogging about my experience, so stay tuned for how my first getaway without my boys went!

Sprinkled with love 🧡