Pregnancy Guilt

Most of you know, I'm expecting my second child in February! While this is an exciting time an such an honorable opportunity, I can't help but to think about the women in my space, and even those I don't know, who are yearning for motherhood and/or a family.

I remember when my husband and I got married, like most couples said, "let's travel and do other things before we start a family." Once we got to the point of wanting to expand our family, it wasn't easy. I mean, why couldn't I just have a fun night with my husband magically become pregnant like most women? I think of the years, the tears, the prayers, the guilt, and the heaviness of seeing other women announce their pregnancy. Now, don't get me wrong, I would be happy for them, but hey, I'm human. I felt a little way about myself.

In 2019, when we found out we were pregnant, I was so ecstatic. Fast forward to posting pictures of my son, my little family, I began to think about those who yearn to have a family. With this recent pregnancy, I've had a different wave of emotions, but still have a little guilt and so much empathy for other women.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm so extremely grateful for this opportunity to bring a daughter into this world. To know that God is entrusting me with such a delicate and beautiful job is humbling and beautiful. I still have a piece of guilt because so many women around me either desire marriage and motherhood; or simply motherhood. While understanding everyone has their own season for different blessings, it doesn't take away the feelings I used to feel and the empathy I have.

If you're reading this, and still dating, or currently seeking fertility treatments, I see you. I understand you. Know you are beautiful. You are loved, you are amazing.

Sprinkled with Love,

B. Mommy Sprinkles